Above: Winter selfie, Swan Valley, MT 2014.
March has come to a close, and it’s looking like the time has come for me to head back to the grind. It’s been a good month, and I didn’t have to travel anywhere outside of Boise for a few weeks, but I’m heading back to the busy season starting tomorrow, when I head way down south for a fire assignment in Florida. I’m a glutton for punishment it would appear, but I just can’t say to no to early season overtime. Plus I’ve never been to Florida for a fire assignment before, and I’m more than happy to check another box off on the “places I’d like to see” list. Pictures and blog posts to follow, I promise.
In the meantime, I’ve continued to spend the winter and spring doing some soul searching. I celebrated surviving another year a few weeks back, and that usually puts me in a reflective mood for at least a few days, if not more. It seems I’ve hit a point in my life where things are going pretty well, but I’m finding myself pondering just what I want to be when I grow up, personally and professionally. I find myself not being particularly satisfied with the current state of affairs, and wondering what, if anything, I should do about it. Not to say that there’s anything wrong per se, as by most measures things are going well.
I say that somewhat jokingly, as I’m pretty sure I’m grown up now, and I do have goals… but the question has become one of what I’m willing to do, or even need to do, to pursue them. I’ve pushed myself pretty hard professionally the past three years or so, taking every opportunity for growth or development I could, and it’s definitely starting to feel like I need to back off a bit… It’s a long-distance event, not a sprint after all. It’s been a good few years, but the stress of pushing myself like I have is getting old. I feel mentally fatigued more often than not these days, and I can’t help but think I need to dial it back a bit… Sometime. Maybe next week, or next month. Or next season. When you grow up like I did, with the personality I have, it’s tough to say no to any opportunity. But like I said, it’s been good, just fatiguing.
Between work, school work, the weather, and whatever else I had going on I didn’t really do much photography or other fun stuff this month. Lots of grey weather and rain (and meetings) kept me inside more than I’d like. I did manage to start back on a more solid outdoor PT schedule around the middle of the month, which meant a lot of biking on pavement, and jogging outside for a change. The warmer weather toward the end of the month was welcome indeed. When you tend to get hit by seasonal affective disorder a little bit in the winter, a change to sunny weather is nice, regardless of the temperature.
I’m crunching away on quite a few projects really, but not many of them are very exciting to anyone but me, and really don’t make for interesting blog posts. I have a feeling that the summer will bring some more interesting happenings, but for now I’m happy to just cruise along, working on my boring projects and getting ready for fire season and all that it will bring.
Until next time…